Tag Archive: love

It happened! We met Dreamers teachers! They seem nice. I feel even less sure about the public school setting after seeing it.
I know that its common place, I know that people grow up going to public school just fine. I just.
I dont see how one teacher can teach a room full of 25 five year olds. I dont like it. I dont understand it. I just feel very not at ease with the entire setting.

The teachers and counselor where very happy to meet us and glad that we took such an interest in Dreamers life and education and the time to meet his teachers.


I got my official diagnoses of IBS yesterday at the doctor. Hurray (NOT!). I have been on an elemination diet for 2 weeks. It seems that the things that upset my gut are fake sure and dairy. I am still trying to be lean on my gluten but its not an aggrivant as far as I can tell.


Bff called yesterday. We talked for a while. I am glad to have her back in my life. She keeps me safe, I keep her wild.


Tomorrow I have an appointment to get my book tattoo with my birthday money and coupon that I got.
Its going to be a pile of books with the word ‘always’ spilling out along with the deathly hallows symbol, and the qoute pain demands to be felt. Its going to go on my left back calf.


Nightwish is really struggling with her body pain and her depression. I wish I knew better how to help her, but she pushes us away so hard.


I went and found out about getting a Microdermal next thursday, that is happening before I go to the Big City.

I am transferring to the Dry grocery section of the Retail store that I work for from the back. It will be a big change in hours that I work, times I see Cinder and things that I do. I am however ready for it and its a needed change.


Thursday I am also having my Mirena implant removed. NO I am not having a baby RIGHT NOW. But I am having it taken out in the preperation to be ready for it when I thus choose.


I got to skype with Flame, Final and Bear  tonight all at the same time. It brought me MUCH joy. To hear and see them all at the same time is something that I don’t think words can really express.
To see Flames face as she laughs at someone one of us does etc. It makes things pretty great



The moment where I say goodnights to everyone is the WORST though. I feel it in the pit of my stomach. There is nothing that a computer screen allows, that i can use to show how much I am going to miss them while asleep. I would sleep with Skype on all night, if nothing more then to hear them breathing while they slept.



I have been able to talk to Wuukiee almost every night this week. It has brightened my day,  to be able to hear how hers was and share mine. I love me a Wuukiee muchly.

Tomorrow is looking like it will be another down day. I didnt even have to get out of my jammies ALL DAY.
I am probably going to stay up super late again reading.
Speaking of which, I picked up my kindle and started reading a book for the first time in months. It is usually the first time to go when my depression hits.

I start training next week at work.
I go to ND to see Ashes very soon.
School starts just after that.

My life is happening finally. I was able to say, this is MY life and I am GOING to make it happen.



Coming out – the results

We got an email back. It was as bad as I feared in a way, but better as well.

There was a lot of religous judgement passed around. Denial of CxD being a human with a name. As well as being compaired to just a nightly threesome. Fantastic. ::sarcasm::

All in all we are still invited to Christmas (yule…) (winter celebration season) (darn it) and supposidly always welcome. Hmm…

Yule celebration Saturday. Jedi will be there. Can’t wait. I miss her. Wanna kiss and hug her again.